It dawned on me after writing the entry about the balloon ride that I’d mentioned a bucket list item without ever actually having a bucket list. It’s true, I don’t have a list of things I hope to experience or accomplish before death. Do most people? It’s got me thinking. Maybe I need one. Maybe part of my eternal unrest is that I haven’t applied any structure to my ambition. Possible? Maybe…
What’s also true is that I didn’t do a check-in birthday entry this year – the annual article I do on the state of me – my health, happiness, relationships, career…all that. I didn’t do it because my father’s death had me in a near blackout state for the first half of the year. My birthday is in April so… I wasn’t in a good mental space for writing. In some ways I’m still not.
But I’m thinking maybe I (re)visit those things. Maybe I take some time to acknowledge where I am in life, how that measures up with where I want to be and then sketch out some items to accomplish. I think I’ll do it in three parts.
1) I’ll just do a brain dump of all the interesting things I’ve accomplished at 40. They don’t have to be spectacular I don’t think. They just have to be unique things that maybe not everyone experiences that have been influential towards making me who I am today. My ingredients, so to speak.
2) I’ll do a check in of where I am at 40, just like I always do. The things I’ll consider are my mental and physical state, my relationships with my family and friends, my career and my interests and ambitions that are just uniquely me. All that in an effort to answer the question – How am I doing??
3) I’ll make that bucket list, an inventory of things I want to accomplish before I die.
Yeah. That’s what I’ll do….